IN THE MORNING,
when first tickled with light purified by opaque cathedral glass, the vision she had
painted was eerie, a cryptic accent highlighting a dire resolution. But then, when
illuminated by the great candle chandelier hanging from the pyramidal ceiling
of stone, light necessary at a minimum to really begin seeing detail, the work stirred
to life, becoming mesmerizing and increasingly complex, as well as impossible
to understand. That’s exactly what she wanted.
Shades of gray pigment rendered in surrealism, her easy, untethered brush strokes had assembled numerous geometric rows of long, cylindrical objects, bold, silver-gray and crisp on one side of the mural-size canvas, muted, charcoal-gray blurred and distorted, similarly echeloned in opposition on the other. Woven in between the objects was a massive steel-gray chain, an unseen force dramatically pulling on it, violently uprooting the cylinders against their structural will towards the center, meshing them together, while sequentially destroying them.
Shades of gray pigment rendered in surrealism, her easy, untethered brush strokes had assembled numerous geometric rows of long, cylindrical objects, bold, silver-gray and crisp on one side of the mural-size canvas, muted, charcoal-gray blurred and distorted, similarly echeloned in opposition on the other. Woven in between the objects was a massive steel-gray chain, an unseen force dramatically pulling on it, violently uprooting the cylinders against their structural will towards the center, meshing them together, while sequentially destroying them.
They
were pointed shapes with fins, set against a chaotic pale taupe background of
thick crumbling walls and collapsing buildings, burning with giant ash-gray
flames of fire, and drenched in dark, arsenic-gray rain. In as many shades of
gray, the artist had also painted numbers; binary code that fluttered from an
inky sky, initially as single digit ones and zeros, before morphing into random
numerals of multiple digits, that then transformed into summations and
equations, with fractions, Greek letters and symbols in brackets and
parenthesis, and in various sizes and forms. Some of these formulations were
wavy block, some vague cube, some sharp flat, overlaying the work, floating
arbitrarily in space before taking on a unique perspective of their very own.
And lastly, at the linear vanishing point of the bleak scene was one large eye,
with the pupil dilated and fixed, leaving a thin iris rim of glaucous and
blue-gray.
Watched
by five unlit klieg lights perfectly positioned on a spotlessly swept stone floor, spaced exactly three and a half feet apart, the swirling painting,
six by fourteen feet, was mounted on wooden stands against the granite wall of
a large, four-sided room. The room was reinforced with dark mahogany throughout,
and decorated with four large windows of multicolored, antique cathedral glass designed
to catch most of the day’s sun. Once a chapel, but empty of ornaments as a
result of looting from previous centuries, the drafty space, which had a
distinct amplified echo, was at the center of a medieval Christian Monastery
perched high on the western face of a craggy Turkish cliff.
The
timeworn sanctum had become the artist's studio, a refuge to paint, as well as
her place to study and learn. A plain wooden desk, two wooden chairs, and the
tools of an artist were all that now furnished the room. And there, created
amid the bouquet of the artist’s solvents, mixed with humid currents of cool
air meandering through dark corridors with vaulted ceilings, the large painting
was just one representation, a single chapter in an expanding volume of the
artist’s impressions of the struggles of the human race, the totality that is
the essence of not only the evolution of mankind, but the discovery of the
rules of the universe itself.
It
was a layered postulation of murky oils made with grizzled paintbrushes and
pallet knife, and with the floating numbers and formulas, the essence of a
theorem, perhaps verifying something, but solving nothing. And with those
complexities and likely conundrums, the composition had managed to produce
substance and achieve analytic life. Yet, could her analysis be fearful, a
gloomy, surreal projection in mural form?
From
the start, as geniuses before her, she was a cerebral vacuum, and painting was
her resulting quasar. Through art she’d discovered a cathartic outlet, her
artistic creations being a veritable spinoff for a voracious, super black hole
of intellectual appetite. An apt juxtaposition with inflation of the universe
at the jumpstart of the Big Bang, a favorite subject of hers’, the expansion of
her grasp rapidly inflating, her mind was dissecting accepted theories, often
uprooting the basis of their foundations with original and revolutionary proofs
of her own, the state of being versus what will become. In her own scale of Planck
Time, she was devouring all that was discoverable or ever dreamt possible to imagine,
and finding not only the known unknown, but also that never before imagined –
the unknown unrevealed secrets of the universe.
Her
curiosities ranged widely from language and art, to philosophy, math, and especially
physics; lately on studies most would consider to be obscure, certainly very
small. The deep inquisitive interest she developed for things was aroused by
the magical, or what appeared to be supernatural, that is until truly
investigated, and explained scientifically. The compass, magnates, fireflies at
dusk, had all captured her curiosity at one time or another.
She’d recently become preoccupied with the silvery-gray metal known as uranium, at first for its shiny color, which reminded her of mercury, quickly becoming even more interested because of its unique behavior. From her studies she’d learned that contained deep within uranium were dormant forces, at rest since the birth of the universe, and that when sparked and unleashed, those forces were exceptional to behold. Inside this gray metal, where things are a billion times smaller than she, was an isotope, another form of uranium able to sustain a fission chain reaction unleashing enormous, mind-boggling energies similar, she knew, to that of the sun. She also knew that the power released from that dormant energy could be used for good, or for bad.
She’d recently become preoccupied with the silvery-gray metal known as uranium, at first for its shiny color, which reminded her of mercury, quickly becoming even more interested because of its unique behavior. From her studies she’d learned that contained deep within uranium were dormant forces, at rest since the birth of the universe, and that when sparked and unleashed, those forces were exceptional to behold. Inside this gray metal, where things are a billion times smaller than she, was an isotope, another form of uranium able to sustain a fission chain reaction unleashing enormous, mind-boggling energies similar, she knew, to that of the sun. She also knew that the power released from that dormant energy could be used for good, or for bad.
On
one hand it could be used as an energy source with unlimited potential, such as
powering an entire city of millions of people, and on the other hand for
weapons with terrible destructive power, "Weapons of mass
destruction," many called them, capable of instantly vaporizing that very
same city along with all of those people. She had also discovered that nowadays
the use of fission from uranium alone was considered primitive, and weapons had
long ago evolved to thermonuclear, a type of bomb the world’s superpowers each
had tens of thousands of. But it started with uranium, and when enriched with
enough quantity, an equalizer for those who weren’t superpowers, and without
question, a means of terror.
Therefore
because of those particular truths, many conventionally powerful regimes, some
frightening and bellicose, were just as obsessed as she was with uranium, the
radioactive element that made it all possible. She just looked at it
differently than they did. A sweep with the paintbrush here, and a stroke with
the paintbrush there, represented a myriad of her original feelings, analysis,
and predictions. That’s how she worked.
Climbing
down from a wooden stool on which she’d stood for those final sweeps and
strokes, the artist looked at her mother, who while admiring the work steadied
the stool. With her brush, she pointed at the forbidding cylindrical shapes.
“They're missiles,” she said with a gaping smile revealing a missing tooth, a
lateral incisor.
“I
can see that,” her mother answered with a smile in return, placing an elegant
hand on her daughter’s ponytailed head, the hair satin coffee just as hers’.
Gliding
her hand softly down the fair face, squaring it to her own, produced a gleam
from the girl’s luminous hazel eyes. The mother gently held the tiny chin,
lifting it to examine the still fixed beam closely. “Hmm, well look at that.
You have another new one coming in, don’t you?”
The
girl nodded silently, probing the space with the slide of her tongue. “Est-il à votre gout – is it
to your liking?” she asked turning her head to eye the painting.
“Yes
– yes it is,” the mother answered, her undeterred doting gaze coming from
unusually wide orbits, a Bouvier-esque mild ocular hypertelorism and downturned
eyes just far enough apart to make her appearance uncommon, yet uniquely
alluring and beautiful. The condition was hereditary and the daughter just the
same.
“S'il vous plait Karen. You’re
just saying that, aren’t you?” The daughter liked to playfully tease, often
injecting her new favorite language and her mother’s name, accented as well, into
the subtle ribbing, especially rolling the r. Oui oui Kareen.
Initiated
by the daughter, they’d been on a first name basis for more than a year,
something Karen was slightly uncomfortable with in the beginning. Although
things were different now, Karen knew that she would always be the mother in
the traditional sense, especially for those few things that remained routine
and natural. There were motherly things that always remained; certainly
nurturing and caring as all loving mothers do, but primarily being the
protector, and of that she was devoted, which gave her great comfort.
“Don’t
be silly. Of course I’m not. I love all of your paintings,” Karen giggled, shifting
her attention to the painting, affirmed by her thumb on chin, forefinger
crossing full lips.
“Well
you don’t sound very positive. Maybe you need to see it a little better.”
“Alright
– I’m trying,” the mother said, her eyes narrowing as they darted across the
canvass.
“Pensez positif ma chère
Karen. Oui - think positive please, you need to really see it. Here, I can
help you,” the girl said, continuing her French intonation and nodding at a
black button a step or two away on the floor. A black electrical cord was attached
to the button, and the cord connected to a transformer, and in turn to a wire
whorl that led to a generator.
The
mother did as instructed, and upon lifting her foot off the button, she could
feel a sudden vibration in her core. A low hum simultaneously increased in
pitch as the five klieg lights began to flicker and turned on, and within
moments the cold room was very warm, and awash in reflected colors from one end
of the spectrum to the other.
Eyes
opened wide, her tall, thin frame rigid, the mother caught her failed breath,
forcing a murmur, “I…” She couldn’t finish, the words of expression had
vanished, so instead said nothing and just looked.
“You
can see it now, can’t you?”
“Yes,”
Karen breathed with the faintest of a whisper, the lack of speech saying more
than volumes of encyclopedias.
“Tell
me if you like it now.”
“I’m…”
Karen continued in a feeble attempt to collate a barrage of thoughts into
meaningful words, as if frontal lobe overload was robbing the Broca’s area of
the brain its ability to formulate language.
“I
knew you would like it,” the little girl said with a slight one-sided grin.
Her
mouth filled with saliva produced by an over stimulated nervous system, Karen
swallowed, clearing her throat to ask in a barely audible tone, “What are you
going to call it?”
“It
doesn’t have a name yet.”
“Is
it finished?”
Taking
a few steps back and folding her arms, brush gripped in her small hand, the
little girl pursed her lips, squinted and studied. “Oh yes,” she finally said
after a long silence. “It’s finished.”
“Then
sign it untitled,” Karen said, finally snapping the hold of the painting. With
a slight tremble she handed her daughter a pallet knife that the child took. “You
can decide on a name later,” she added nervously.
Scraping
and scooping from a pallet of oils, using titanium white for petals, cadmium
green for filament, she briskly fashioned a flower in the bottom right corner
of the painting. Then with a sharp pin and a prick of her finger, she added the
stamens. That was her signature, Lily.
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